hold on, we gonna make it, if it takes all night. we're  going back where we belong. hold on, we got the wings and we're chasing the wind.

I can walk through hell with a smile

Todaaaay.... school. It sucks as always. What's wrong with the people? I think that's a question I ask myself nearly every day. Because they don't have an own life they need mine to talk about. I wonder what they would talk about if I weren't in their class. You know what? My life - my decisions. I'm doing what's the best for me and I know you're trying hard to break me - but look, here am I, still standing. Of course, if it's too much, you can break down - at home. Go to school with all these people you hate and make them wonder how you still can smile. It makes them angry and what makes them angry makes me happy. Holidays are nearly here! Just tomorrow and the whole class can kiss my ass. 7 months left until I'll finish school. I think I will start to count down the days now.

i am my own savior

a friend is what you've never been for me

just a few weeks ago i felt so lost and sad because my ''best'' friend left months ago. but then i started to realize that you've never been a friend for me. you lied, left me alone, you didn't call, didn't answer you weren't there when i needed you. i was just good enough when you needed something or when you were feeling down and you knew that i would listen and help you. i regret that so much! there's nothing lost of these feelings that i had weeks ago. what's left ist anger and hate.
how could i have ever been so stupid and let you into my life? i'm so glad that i am stronger today and give a fuck! i hope that you will suffer one day! i'm wishing you so much pain for what you did to me.
Suck it, bitch.

me and the whole society i'm living in

Sometimes it's hard to find words for something that you're trying to explain. Some days my thoughts are running too fast through my mind. Since yesterday i'm thinking about the stupid society i'm living in. I'm thinking too much while autumn is coming. What's wrong with all these people in this town? Some are not reliable, some are bitchy, others are just stupid. No one is really 'normal'. I may like the same things that everybody else like and I may dress like all the others but that doesn't mean that I'm acting like all of them. As long as I know this nothing bad can happen to me.

''The worst things in life come free to us
And we're all under the upper hand
Go mad for a couple of grams
And we don't want to go outside tonight
And in a pipe we fly to the Motherland
Or sell love to another man
It's too cold outside
For angels to fly''