My heart is bleeding like hell

I am not able to put in words what I am thinking and feeling today. I am still wishing that Amanda Todd was still alive and I am still that fuckin' sad. She could have been saved. How do people sleep at night?

 

 But even after her death people are talking shit. Bullying will never stop. There will aways be good people and bad people. But this story shows that the good people need to open their eyes and help. 

Bullies kill. Words scar. Rumors destroy.

Stand up for the weak, the hurt, the lost and the bullied.

Be the change you want to see.

That is all we can do. Learn from this story.

 

R.I.P Amanda Todd

One more angel in heaven, one more star in the sky.

 Amanda Michelle Todd (died October 10, 2012) was a 15-year-old Canadian teenager whose suicide  was attributed to cyber-bullying through the social networking website Facebook.

So I just heard the news and watched the video. Watch the whole video or watch nothing! 

What can I say? I am shocked. I mean, suicides happen just too often. And this girl even put her story in a video which is really heartbreaking. She had to run away for such a long time and I can't understand why people are doing things like that.

Yes, she showed her boobs. And? It was ONE mistake she did. ONE! Who should've known that this mistake would follow her and destroy her whole life? Who should've know that people could be so cold? They should feel so damn ashamed! Her video is known wordwide now. 

She tried to kill herself twice. I thought people would stop bullying after her first try. But what did they do? They punched her, they bullied and bullied and they never stopped.

It just made me cry because people destroyed the life of a pretty, young and wonderful girl. 

She posted this video because she thought it wold help other people. She felt horrible and even wanted to help other people. 

And as always Facebook took part in this bullying process.

I think it is time to show some respect now. I already offered the family my condolences and I think it is time to take a break from facebook. 

And in my opinion facebook should be shut down!
I will continue writing this blog, tumblr and twitter. But social networks.. You can talk and meet in real life and it is time to take a stand against the internet. It has become an important part of our lives, I know. But some people use it for other things and I don't want to be in a network that takes part in a  bullying process and that's one of the reasons young girls or boys kill themselves. 

Maybe it is okay for other people, but not for me. 

Show some respect, be strong, take a stand against social networks.

hold on, we gonna make it, if it takes all night. we're  going back where we belong. hold on, we got the wings and we're chasing the wind.

I can walk through hell with a smile

Todaaaay.... school. It sucks as always. What's wrong with the people? I think that's a question I ask myself nearly every day. Because they don't have an own life they need mine to talk about. I wonder what they would talk about if I weren't in their class. You know what? My life - my decisions. I'm doing what's the best for me and I know you're trying hard to break me - but look, here am I, still standing. Of course, if it's too much, you can break down - at home. Go to school with all these people you hate and make them wonder how you still can smile. It makes them angry and what makes them angry makes me happy. Holidays are nearly here! Just tomorrow and the whole class can kiss my ass. 7 months left until I'll finish school. I think I will start to count down the days now.

i am my own savior

a friend is what you've never been for me

just a few weeks ago i felt so lost and sad because my ''best'' friend left months ago. but then i started to realize that you've never been a friend for me. you lied, left me alone, you didn't call, didn't answer you weren't there when i needed you. i was just good enough when you needed something or when you were feeling down and you knew that i would listen and help you. i regret that so much! there's nothing lost of these feelings that i had weeks ago. what's left ist anger and hate.
how could i have ever been so stupid and let you into my life? i'm so glad that i am stronger today and give a fuck! i hope that you will suffer one day! i'm wishing you so much pain for what you did to me.
Suck it, bitch.

me and the whole society i'm living in

Sometimes it's hard to find words for something that you're trying to explain. Some days my thoughts are running too fast through my mind. Since yesterday i'm thinking about the stupid society i'm living in. I'm thinking too much while autumn is coming. What's wrong with all these people in this town? Some are not reliable, some are bitchy, others are just stupid. No one is really 'normal'. I may like the same things that everybody else like and I may dress like all the others but that doesn't mean that I'm acting like all of them. As long as I know this nothing bad can happen to me.

''The worst things in life come free to us
And we're all under the upper hand
Go mad for a couple of grams
And we don't want to go outside tonight
And in a pipe we fly to the Motherland
Or sell love to another man
It's too cold outside
For angels to fly''