Just finished ''Cyberbully''

My thoughts are still the same.
The movie showed the process of bullying and how the people suffer. It even showed how the girl tried to kill herself. But it also showed how you can get help and that bullying is something that you can get through.
So everyone outside who suffers from bullying: you're not alone, you can get help, this won't bring you down even when it seems like that sometimes. 

Cyberbully movie with Emily Osment

It's been a while since my last post, I'm really sorry.
I hope you all had a great christmas time and I hope you're enjoying the holidays (:

I'm watching the movie ''Cyberbully'' right now with Emily Osment.
I found some scenes of it on tumblr and just wanted to see it.

Here's the plot:

''Taylor Hillridge is a teenage girl whose father recently left the family and is being raised by her single mother, Kris, along with her younger brother, Eric. She is close friends with two other girls, Samantha Caldone and Cheyenne Mortenson. Earlier, Taylor made a seemingly innocuous comment to one of her classmates, Lindsay Fordyce, to which Lindsay took great offense.
She receives a computer for her seventeenth birthday from her mom. At first, Taylor is excited by the independence of going online without her mother always watching her. Taylor soon finds herself the victim of cyberbullying when she becomes a member of a social website named Cliquesters. Things begin to go wrong when Taylor's brother hacks into her account and posts a defamatory message about his sister. Students at school write horrid comments about her and she becomes afraid to face her friends including her best friend Samantha. The abuse that Taylor receives from the hands of her schoolmates pushes her to a breaking point. Taylor almost commits suicide by overdosing with pills, but cannot get the cap off, and is sent to a hospital. Taylor's mom learns from the incident and takes on the school system and state legislation to prevent others from going through the same problem as her daughter.''

We all hear and read about bullying but we can't really imagine what the people are going through. The movie shows it really good. It's interesting, sad, heartbreaking. It makes you angry. I hate bullying so much and I hate people that don't think about their actions and about what they can do to other people.

The swallow leaves her nest

there is just a half year left of school. and... i decided to go to college after i finished school! i am so excited what the future will bring (:

Casper - Unzerbrechlich

Liebes Tagebuch, heute kann keiner mir was. 

Ich gebe nicht auf, bin was ich bin, nie wieder beuge ich mich.
Augen über den Schultern, lache dem Neubeginn entgegen.
Vergeude nicht eine Sekunde, hole mich raus.
Dreh das Radio so was von laut auf.  

Ich schwebe nun, lebe nun
über den Dingen und keiner kann was dagegen tun.
Lebe gut, alte Welt schäme dich nicht,
vergiss das alte, gläserne Ich.

Ich bin unzerbrechlich, unverletzlich.
Mach mich unvergesslich.
Bin unermesslich stark und der Vorhang fällt  

Sieh wie verrückt.
Alle beten im Kriege, Prediger lieben,
immer die Flasche neben der Bibel, er trägt die Kredite.
Die Giebel am Dach, Treppe vorm Haus fehlt,
Hauptsache der Zaun steht.

Legende der Clique, Rebelle für nichts.
Es ist alles wider dem Leben hier,
mach’s gut schöne Welt, ich vergebe dir.

Zeit zum Vergeben, jeder von uns ist Kunst.
Gezeichnet vom Leben, doch heute bin ich stark.
Stampf auf. Ein Elefant ab dem heutigen Tag. 

Die Sonne scheint für mich, denn ich bin, denn ich bin,
denn ich bin…

Ich bin unzerbrechlich, unverletzlich.
Mach mich unvergesslich. 

Courage is...

Courage is when you're afraid,
But you keep on moving anyway

Courage is when you're in pain,
But you keep on living anyway

Courage is when you're afraid
Courage is when it all seems grey
Courage is when you make a change,
And you keep on living anyway

You keep on moving anyway
You keep on giving anyway

hello, i love it

free to be me

hello again, it's been a while i think. after two weeks of holidays school started today. but i think i'm not able to call this holidays, because there was always fuckin school stuff to do. i don't know how i succeed in all these things but somehow i do. it may seem so easy for me to do these school things but some days i have to do this stuff 4 hours at home. sometimes even more and sometimes less. well, a little fishy told me: ''just keep swimming...''

My heart is bleeding like hell

I am not able to put in words what I am thinking and feeling today. I am still wishing that Amanda Todd was still alive and I am still that fuckin' sad. She could have been saved. How do people sleep at night?

 

 But even after her death people are talking shit. Bullying will never stop. There will aways be good people and bad people. But this story shows that the good people need to open their eyes and help. 

Bullies kill. Words scar. Rumors destroy.

Stand up for the weak, the hurt, the lost and the bullied.

Be the change you want to see.

That is all we can do. Learn from this story.

 

R.I.P Amanda Todd

One more angel in heaven, one more star in the sky.

 Amanda Michelle Todd (died October 10, 2012) was a 15-year-old Canadian teenager whose suicide  was attributed to cyber-bullying through the social networking website Facebook.

So I just heard the news and watched the video. Watch the whole video or watch nothing! 

What can I say? I am shocked. I mean, suicides happen just too often. And this girl even put her story in a video which is really heartbreaking. She had to run away for such a long time and I can't understand why people are doing things like that.

Yes, she showed her boobs. And? It was ONE mistake she did. ONE! Who should've known that this mistake would follow her and destroy her whole life? Who should've know that people could be so cold? They should feel so damn ashamed! Her video is known wordwide now. 

She tried to kill herself twice. I thought people would stop bullying after her first try. But what did they do? They punched her, they bullied and bullied and they never stopped.

It just made me cry because people destroyed the life of a pretty, young and wonderful girl. 

She posted this video because she thought it wold help other people. She felt horrible and even wanted to help other people. 

And as always Facebook took part in this bullying process.

I think it is time to show some respect now. I already offered the family my condolences and I think it is time to take a break from facebook. 

And in my opinion facebook should be shut down!
I will continue writing this blog, tumblr and twitter. But social networks.. You can talk and meet in real life and it is time to take a stand against the internet. It has become an important part of our lives, I know. But some people use it for other things and I don't want to be in a network that takes part in a  bullying process and that's one of the reasons young girls or boys kill themselves. 

Maybe it is okay for other people, but not for me. 

Show some respect, be strong, take a stand against social networks.

hold on, we gonna make it, if it takes all night. we're  going back where we belong. hold on, we got the wings and we're chasing the wind.

I can walk through hell with a smile

Todaaaay.... school. It sucks as always. What's wrong with the people? I think that's a question I ask myself nearly every day. Because they don't have an own life they need mine to talk about. I wonder what they would talk about if I weren't in their class. You know what? My life - my decisions. I'm doing what's the best for me and I know you're trying hard to break me - but look, here am I, still standing. Of course, if it's too much, you can break down - at home. Go to school with all these people you hate and make them wonder how you still can smile. It makes them angry and what makes them angry makes me happy. Holidays are nearly here! Just tomorrow and the whole class can kiss my ass. 7 months left until I'll finish school. I think I will start to count down the days now.

i am my own savior

a friend is what you've never been for me

just a few weeks ago i felt so lost and sad because my ''best'' friend left months ago. but then i started to realize that you've never been a friend for me. you lied, left me alone, you didn't call, didn't answer you weren't there when i needed you. i was just good enough when you needed something or when you were feeling down and you knew that i would listen and help you. i regret that so much! there's nothing lost of these feelings that i had weeks ago. what's left ist anger and hate.
how could i have ever been so stupid and let you into my life? i'm so glad that i am stronger today and give a fuck! i hope that you will suffer one day! i'm wishing you so much pain for what you did to me.
Suck it, bitch.

me and the whole society i'm living in

Sometimes it's hard to find words for something that you're trying to explain. Some days my thoughts are running too fast through my mind. Since yesterday i'm thinking about the stupid society i'm living in. I'm thinking too much while autumn is coming. What's wrong with all these people in this town? Some are not reliable, some are bitchy, others are just stupid. No one is really 'normal'. I may like the same things that everybody else like and I may dress like all the others but that doesn't mean that I'm acting like all of them. As long as I know this nothing bad can happen to me.

''The worst things in life come free to us
And we're all under the upper hand
Go mad for a couple of grams
And we don't want to go outside tonight
And in a pipe we fly to the Motherland
Or sell love to another man
It's too cold outside
For angels to fly''

CHECK IT OUT !

Today I fell in love with this video. Just compare their life with the life we're living. We got so much and we always want more, it's never enough and we're never really happy. These people got much less than we do. But they are so happy and they enjoy nearly everything. They got such a peaceful life while we are just wondering about how we're dressed on who's got the newest mobile phone.

I would be so grateful if I could ever get the chance to meet these people. If you don't understand, you're missing something and I'm feeling pity for you.

Verwechsel meinen Charakter nicht mit meinem Verhalten. Mein Charakter bin ich, mein Verhalten hängt von dir ab.

Verwechsel meinen Charakter nicht mit meinem Verhalten. Mein Charakter bin ich, mein Verhalten hängt von dir ab.

5 ♥ / 16 September, 2012

If I had it my way

If I had it my way, New York would be just around the corner. Dublin would be down the street and Surrey would be 10minutes away. It sucks.

GG

i love blair and serena so much my best in GG and they ruined them like nate and serena why i mean they were the best true thing

I'm still feeling like that

I can't let this moment go when kids are the only ones who makes me feel this way, lately i'm falling for them.

Shopping tour today and 'Back-to-school'-Outfit

I went shopping todaaaay and I found a lot of wonderful clothes. Here they are:

I always buy a new book!

yes, the left scarf got two colours!

i love these oversized shirts!

Back-to-school Outfit

Get this shit in your fucking head

What would you do if I told you that I la la la la love you? Do if I said it tonight?

the first really personal post

after my ''best friend'' fooled me for about 5 years i'm not able to trust in a friendship ever again. so thanks, bitch. she left and i don't even know the reason. i'm all over it... i'm not over it.
no, i don't miss her. i can't even say that i miss the time because the time was full of lies. i miss the time when i thought we were friends and close to each other. nobody should've known how much that hurt me.
now i pretend that i have no emotion, i won't let anyone close enough to hurt me ever again.
that's the result of your lies, 'best friend'.

Emeli Sandé - Read All About It

You've got the words to change a nation
but you're biting your tongue
You've spent a life time stuck in silence
afraid you'll say something wrong
If no one ever hears it how we gonna learn your song?
So come on, come on
Come on, come on
You've got a heart as loud as lightening
So why let your voice be tamed?
Baby we're a little different
there's no need to be ashamed
You've got the light to fight the shadows
so stop hiding it away
Come on, come on

I wanna sing, I wanna shout
I wanna scream till the words dry out
so put it in all of the papers,
I'm not afraid
they can read all about it
read all about it

At night we're waking up the neighbours
while we sing away the blues
making sure that we remember
cause we all matter too
if the truth has been forbidden
then we're breaking all the rules
so come on, come on
come on, come on,
lets get the tv and the radio
to play our tune again
its 'bout time we got some airplay of our version of events
there's no need to be afraid
I will sing with you my friend
Come on, come on

I wanna sing, I wanna shout
I wanna scream till the words dry out
so put it in all of the papers,
I'm not afraid
they can read all about it
read all about it

Yeah we're all wonderful, wonderful people
so when did we all get so fearful?
Now we're finally finding our voices
so take a chance, come help me sing this
Yeah we're all wonderful, wonderful people
so when did we all get so fearful?
and now we're finally finding our voices
so take a chance, come help me sing this

I wanna sing, I wanna shout
I wanna scream till the words dry out
so put it in all of the papers,
I'm not afraid
they can read all about it
read all about it

I wanna sing, I wanna shout
I wanna scream till the words dry out
so put it in all of the papers,
I'm not afraid
they can read all about it
read all about it

Lucky

Isn't she lucky, this Hollywood girl?
She is so lucky, but why does she cry?
If there's nothing missing in her life
Why do tears come at night?


Yes, I am hearing this old song from Britney Spears right now with her Mickey Mouse voice. I have no problem to admit that i love this song.
But did anyone ever really listened to it and recognized what she's singing? Did anyone ever think about it?
I did. And i think that no happy person would sing something like that.
Hollywood infected your brain.

wearer of glasses

It's me again! it's been a while since my last post, i'm sorry.
so i wore glasses the last 3 years. and i wanted to try something different so i got contact lens. what's the problem huh? the problem is that i feel so damn dizzy when i'm wearing the contacts. i'll go the doctor again. then i'll try it the second time.
but what when it doesn't work? when it doesn't work the second time, i think i'll have to buy other glasses.
i really like these ones:

and then i have to wear them more often. i never thought that i would do it. i'll have to wear them at school, i wear them at home, and i'll wear them in my free time. but not always because there are some days where i can see great without them.
i REALLY WANT IT! but the next problem is my mother. she doesn't want to buy new glasses. so thanks! i'll have to buy it from my own money. that sucks and makes me angry. but what else can i do? right! nothing!

simple

'' I should have never come home. ''
'' No, you just should have never left. ''

Rock of Ages

Damn, i got the CD. i will hear it so loud and scream 'til my neighbours call the police

misery business

the next time

i will kill every ugly guy who even looks at me. might sound like i'm a bitch. but there were too much during the last time. go screw yourself, i don't even wanna talk to you.

yesterday

i took these two pictures yesterday, it was an amazing day. sun was shining the whole time and i was so fuckin' happy.

I want summer !

I want summer! It doesn't even have to be so fuckin' hot outside. But i finally wanna go outside with shorts and tshirts. I wanna go swimming and wanna chill outside with friends.

Summer makes everything look so beautiful and it seems like everything is a lot easier during summer.

Where is the love ?

People killing, people dying
Children hurtin', hear them crying
Can you practice what you preach
Or would you turn the other cheek
Father father father father
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questioning
Where is the love?

 I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older y'all people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us following the wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids want to act like what they see in the cinemas

Whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness and equality
Instead of spreading love
We spreading animosity
Lack of understanding
Leading us away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
It's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep our faith alive 'till love is found

that's it..

i want this someday in the nearly future. i think i really deserve it after all i'm going through and i'm still in these bad times.

without words

''you can point a finger but there's three pointing back''

well, i think this is true. everybody reacts differently.

but i can say that this fact wouldn't stop me from pointing my finger.

i got a special device. only for me. it fits just perfectly.

if the world turns left, then i'm going right.

and that's just the best i can ever do. 

Chasing Brooklyn / In Liebe, Brooklyn

I finally got it! I'm so happy about it. Today I'll start reading it..
This book is a little bit different.. It's a lot smaller than a normal book and it's written like a poem.

Description:
Brooklyn can't sleep. Her boyfriend, Lucca, died only a year ago, and now her friend Gabe has just died of an overdose. Every time she closes her eyes, Gabe's ghost is there waiting for her. She has no idea what he wants or why it isn't Lucca visiting her dreams.
Nico can't stop. He's always running, trying to escape the pain of losing his brother, Lucca. But when Lucca's ghost begins leaving messages, telling Nico to help Brooklyn, emotions come crashing to the surface.
As the nightmares escalate and the messages become relentless, Nico reaches out to Brooklyn. But neither of them can admit that they're being haunted. Until they learn to let each other in, not one soul will be able to rest.

little girl with stupid dreams

this is so me! may is nearly over now and it's hot outside, the summer is going to be started! but there's this weird feeling and these stupid dreams. every summer i'm thinking: this summer is going to be a special one!
i don't even know what exactly i mean.
great times with friends ? the most people here are so fucked up
guys ? guys are the biggest assholes i've ever met.
so i'm going to lay in the sun reading a book. that's my summer. how about you? 

payphone

if happy ever after did exist, i would still be holding you like this

all of our bridges burnt down, i've been wasting my nights - you turned off the lights.

i'm no beauty queen - i'm just beautiful me ♥

you don't have to fuck me up just because you're mad!

''Here I am''

They tell you a good girl is quiet
That you should never ask why
Cause it only makes it harder to fit in
You should be happy, excited
Even if you're just invited
Cause the winners need someone to clap for them

It's so hard just waiting
In a line that never moves
It's time you started making
Your own rules

You gotta scream until there's nothing left
With your last breath
So here I am
Here I am
Make em listen
Cause there is no way you'll be ignored
Not anymore
So here I am
Here I am

Bershka and Catrice

new stuff

And truth be told, I miss you
And truth be told, I'm LYIN' ! ;)

Fighter

But in the end you'll see
You won't stop me

I am a fighter and I
I ain't goin' stop
There is no turning back
I've had enough 

;)

Next to me (:

you won't find him drinking at the tables
rolling dice and staying out til 3
you won't ever find him being unfaithful
you will find him, you'll find him next to me

you won't find him trying to chase the devil
for money, fame, for power, out of grief
you won't ever find him where the rest go
you will find him, you'll find him next to me

(: ♥

...

And I don't know what pain is
or what a bad day is
There's someone without family tonight
and someone's lost their will to fight
And I can sit with my heart breakin'
thinkin 'bout the shame in
The thought of this world being treated less than beautiful
But you've got a heart for somethin'
and love is more than anything
Two hands can make a difference
but a heart can change the world

My biggest mistake

what was my biggest mistake?
it's that i exchanged school. i don't wanna be in that kind of school i'm in.
so what's the problem about that? the classmates, the internship, the teachers, the stuff. it's just everything.
i'm just asking myself ''what the hell am i doing here?''
get me the fuck out of this.

I act differently around different people. Mind you, I'm not fake. I just have my own comfort zone. That's why I only can completely be myself when I'm with people I'm comfortable with.

simple as that

that's the truth. the last time was so fucked up. but during that hard time 

i made some great acquaintances.

i'm so glad that i had the chance to get to know these people.

every story from their live they've told me, every advice they gave me.

that's just something i'm thankful for

they're great personalities

Who honors those we love with the very life we live? Who sends monsters to kill us, and at the same time sings that we'll never die? Who teaches us what's real, and how to laugh at lies? Who decides why we live, and what we'll die to defend? Who chains us, and who holds the key to set us free?
It's you.
You have all the weapons you need.

this entry is important.. for me.

I wanna do something that matters
Say something different
Something that sets the whole world on it's ear
I wanna do something better, with the time i've been given
And i wanna try to touch a few hearts in this life
And leave nothin less that something that says i was here


I made it today ;) And I think i get the chance to do that every single day.

away, away

come away with me, fly away with me, you will never know until you've gone. where will you go?

Dear John

 

This is such a great movie! The relationship of them is just flawless and perfect. I love to watch this movie. It's such a great love story.. that would never happen in real life. That's too bad. Let's go back to reality..